Can’t tell you so I’ll say it here
I hope this doesn’t overwhelm you. The only sadness I have in writing this is that I can’t tell you this. I don’t know if I ever will. That’s really sad. But there’s a lot of happiness. You’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met. Plain and simple. Even if you like someone else or are talking to someone else, that doesn’t change how much I like you and want to talk to you. It doesn’t change how beautiful I think you are. It doesn’t change how much I want you in my life. I’ve made a fair share of big mistakes that I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to make up for. I’ve cried over you more than anything or anyone else in my entire life. It was just amazing to be able to experience such strong feelings for someone. Some people never get to experience that. In their whole life. Yet as a teenager I got to, and for a very long time it was reciprocated to say the least.
No matter how little you may think about me now, it doesn’t change how much I still think about you. No matter how much of a distant memory I may seem like to you now, it doesn’t change how much I still want you here in the present.
I’m sorry for the huge mistakes I’ve made in the heat of the moment. I will probably never be able to make up for them. I will probably never do enough to earn your forgiveness. I will probably never be able to describe how much I regret some of my actions.
I hope you see this someday. I hope I get to show you this someday. If I don’t get to show you, I’m glad that you won’t know how badly I wanted to show you this because I don’t want you to feel bad for me. And if I do get to show you, that’ll be one of the best things that’s happened to me in a long time. And if you see this, I hope it doesn’t overwhelm you.
P.S. I love you. I hope that’s not overwhelming either.
